They thought I wasn’t home.
“Maria mustn’t suspect anything! Be careful, my darling,” my mother-in-law whispered to my husband, her voice low and conspiratorial.
I froze in the hallway, clutching the strap of my bag. I’d come home early from what was supposed to be a long doctor’s appointment, slipping in through the back door to avoid the neighbor’s yappy dog.
But now, standing there in the silence, their hushed conversation sent unease prickling up my spine.
“What are they hiding from me?” I thought, my mind racing.
It wasn’t like I didn’t have enough to worry about. I’d been battling cancer for six months now, enduring chemo sessions that left me feeling exhausted, nauseous, and constantly afraid.
Every time I went to bed, I wondered if I’d wake up to see my son’s smiling face. The idea that Jeff, my husband, and Elaine, my mother-in-law, were keeping secrets from me felt like betrayal.
For a brief moment, I considered bursting in and demanding answers. But I didn’t.
Instead, I plastered on a smile, walked into the living room as though I hadn’t heard a thing, and greeted them like nothing was wrong.
“Hi,” I said.
Jeff smiled at me, his eyes warm, but there was tension in his shoulders. Elaine looked up from the crossword puzzle she always pretended to do when she wanted to avoid eye contact.
“Hey, honey, how’d it go?” Jeff asked.
I shrugged, brushing past them.
“Fine,” I replied. “The usual. I’m actually hungry this time, so I’m going to make myself some soup while my appetite is here.”
It wasn’t fine. Nothing was fine.
Something was going on.